This is my curse and I can’t stop
Day 0
by e
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I don’t know why but after doing “it”, the next day I always have a bad day where I mess something up or just something bad happens to be..I started to realize the pattern long ago but my mind seems like it just doesn’t care that I’ll have a shitty ass day tmrw if I do this…I always tell myself that I’ll just “thug” it out but then right after I just hate myself so much to the point I just wanna end it all (keep in mind I’ll never actually kill myself) but I just really do hate myself for this and I just can’t seem to find the love that I need to give myself to overcome these temptations..
One of the hardest things to realize is that there is no “getting it out of your system,” there’s only getting it INTO your system. Redirection and new positive routines are great tools to get around a “regularly scheduled temptation.”