Hello I’m new

Hello all, this is my first full day on this app fighting this addiction. It’s been only a day and I’ve battled myself at least 5 times. Things shouldn’t have come this far. I was first exposed to porn when I was 10 years old just before I started secondary (middle school). It started off with those damn kissing pranks you could find on YouTube back in the day, I thought it was harmless stuff that I should get used to if I was ever gonna get married and have a wife. But then it started getting worse, kisses weren’t enough and I wanted to see more. I vividly remembered the first time I went on the “hub” , my body froze I was disgusted and in awe, I thought ‘ I can really find anything huh’. I was supposed at how accessible everything was, and that’s how my dependency began, every other week I would get a random thought “bikinis” or “boobs” and I would go on deep dives for hours. But little did I know I’d be battling that addiction nearly 10 years later. Every other week turned into every week, every week turned into every day, and every day turned into nearly three times a day. I’ve been trying to get off porn for a while because it’s been affecting almost everything I’ve been doing, from school work to how I behave with my friends to even how I see women. It’s gotten to the point where I wouldn’t even consider myself marriage material and that I don’t deserve anybody. But of course that was a lie the devil told me and it was overcome, the only thing left was this nasty little habit. I’ve tried other ways to get off porn and they obviously failed. The longest streak I probably got to was twenty days. See i was taught to hide my sins and that’s how I kept failing, no one was holding me accountable, i never had any one that experienced the same things i did, and I believe if I keep up with the posts and accountability on this app. I really think there’s light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you all for reading and I hope we all over come our addictions together !!!