Onward again

I see a lot of people who post are on day 0, or maybe day 2 or 3. Surely that has to be the hardest time for any of us. The longest I ever made it was 21 days and then it all came crashing down in a single day. I asked out my crush, was rejected, and fell into the vicious circle all over again. I’m glad I found this app, partially because I figured if I spent money on trying to quit, maybe I’d take it more seriously. It’s stupid stuff that’s made me relapse before. I’ve been pretty serious about the gym for a little over a year now. One day I was weighing myself (currently cutting) and I just lost my head, relapsed then and there… even after I got this app. But life goes on, and though there have been long periods of my life where I was surely an atheist, I never feel more closely connected to Whatever May Be (or God) than now, when I’m trying to quit. It feels like I’m on the cusp of something key, something fundamental when I reject immediate gratification in favor of long term stability and inner peace.