Reason Number 2 of Why I Want to Quit Porn

I want to be free Before a bout with porn it’s almost the only thing you can think about. It completely envelopes your mind. It’s like you’re in a trance, like you’re a robot just following your programming. You know you are in a trance, you know you can also stop the program and snap out of the trance. But it’s so comforting and nice to stay in the trance. Because for 30 minutes the world stops. Nothing else matters. You just want to escape. Escape the pain of insecurities, escape the stress from work, your family situation, your financial situation, your feeling of inadequacy. There is so much noise and so much stress, the world is bearing down on you and it’s all you can think about. But for a moment you can stop all the noise, by just going to the site that you have used for 8 years of your life. But as soon as it’s over, “what the fuck am I doing.” And all the stress rushes back. But worse because not only do you have the stress of your life but now you fucked up again. You gave into your desires once again even though last time you swore you would stop. I said this would be it. You’re a slave to your desires. You have been for most of your rememberable life. You have talked to small group leaders and pastors. You have talked to trusted friends and parents. Best friend never dealt with porn. Parents don’t understand, “just quit if you actually wanted to quit you would just stop.” You have wanted to stop and swore up and down this would be the last time. You have been a slave to your desires for years. I’m done I want to be free