I needed a change

I quit looking at porn for about 4 months starting last June because I became full of sexual thoughts all the time and I would close my eyes to fall asleep and I would just see the images that I would look at when I was bored or anxious, after those 4 months I was back at school and I began to feel those feelings again and I ended up turning back to porn as a coping mechanism. Since then I have struggled off and on with porn but I need to be able to control my emotions and my urges so I can be a good boyfriend, be a good friend, be a good son, I just don’t want to look in the mirror with hate for myself anymore