For God

Honestly I want to show God that I love him and His daughter that He has allowed me to be a part of. I love my gf and God so much but I feel like a failure everytime I relapse. It is also the only ugly parts of myself I can’t let her see. I know she would accept me and love me regardless because she has the spirit of our Father within her but I want to prove I can face the spirit only and win for their sake.