Consistency. Focusing on the process not the outcome.

I'm only a day into this journey. I've wanted to quit after it destroyed my relationship at 16 I'm now 20. finally taking the steps needed to quit this addiction. I know it's hard, and you want answers and guidance. For me it was religion. Religion made me look deeply within. I then began showing up for myself. It Began with these big ideas that I would draw up in my journals and note paper. I always seemed to get somewhere yet be unsatisfied. Tear it all down, starting fresh. It always leads to the same word consistency. But I hated correction. So I looked at my sins and frightened myself, a younger self so ashamed. This isn't who I wanted to be or become. My addictions started with porn Lead to food Then, after heartbreak, break, I adopted nicotine and weed, a deadly combo of bad habits I inflicted upon myself. Usually started with my getting supper horny, so I lit up a bowl or hit a cart. I took a deep inhale of that sweet menthol. I lay down, and that orange haze wrapped the upper half of my face. It's a disappointing cycle. Once I busted, I usually had self-guilt. It got to a point before religion where I stopped caring, slowly becoming a nihilist. But then I realized I wanted a family of my own one day. My actions and habits, I knew would never suffice as a proper role model. Then sins that I would watch closely to change and redirect energy lust, and gluttony. Don't treat yourself as failing or having a bad day as the end of the world. Dust yourself off, soldier. It was just a rock, and you tripped. Stay consistent with whatever roadmap you lay before yourself Find God and stop the folly, be true and authentic Stay positive and disciplined, don't let the emotions hijack the brain. Stay balanced with logic in the mix.