Relapsed
Day 32
by Daniel Pepple
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Hi guys. I just relapsed yesterday. It feels terrible, I feel drained. I was at work, which I work at a beer store as security. I find Saturdays to be the most difficult days, because you have all these women scantily clothed come in and I have to watch them. It would get me riled up. On Friday I was feeling very much like giving in, but the Lord saw me Through, yesterday tho it felt like I had no chance and gave in. It’s been about 2 weeks. I’m going to cancel the Saturday shifts or get scheduled at a different part of the hotel, many times I’ve relapsed has happened on that Saturday shift.
Don’t dwell, you have to relapse to teach yourself to be vigilant, for you if it happens every Saturday, imagine it to be this metaphoric demon that comes to visit you at that very hour, negotiate with it in your mind and say not today. Write down the details of how that situation came to be, describe a typical Saturday and give yourself something to come back to when in the urge. Also you can always use your mind for sexual fantasy imagery!