Reason Number 3 of Why I Want to Quit Porn. It has destroyed my mind.

Porn has destroyed my mind. How I view life. Relationships. Women. Friends, family. It has ruined my confidence. I have a lot more sexual thoughts and tendencies than I guess I would prefer. You notice things, like when you see a woman in the gym your eyes tend to go directly towards the good stuff instead of like her face. Not that I intentionally do every time but my automatic reaction is when I see a pretty woman. I look down. I don’t like that. I don’t like the feeling after of feeling like a pervert. I don’t want to make a woman feel uncomfortable or unsafe by my presence. Not that I’m just staring holes through her chest but you recognize maybe that you make a couple more glances at particular areas than you should. I don’t like that feeling so I want to be confident enough to know who I am in the things I have been through and accomplished. I don’t want that thought in the back of my head that I watched porn last night or whenever every time I talk to a girl. Because not only do you feel ashamed but you know if this girl found out, it would disgust her or make her feel insecure. The shame is always on your mind, but I don’t want it to be anymore. But I’m on the cusp of going 6 days clean. Friends I haven’t gone 6 days without porn in years. And I’m glad. I can feel my mind changing and I thank God for that. But this app has helped a lot for sure.