I let her down.
I’ve been talking to this girl for several months and I attempted to cheat on her after becoming exclusive at my own suggestion. She found out immediately and now I am blocked on everything. She confronted me and I feel like an absolute piece of shit. She was my second chance and I ruined it by chasing momentary pleasure. I hate having the self awareness to recognize my flaws but not having the discipline to change them.
Never say never! If it’s meant to be it always comes back :) but if she ever comes back (don’t get your hopes up) don’t make the same mistake again.