Started again on Day 1

I will not falter Someone wise told me this is not a fight I can white knuckle through. It is way stronger than me I don’t believe in god but I believe in righteousness and the combined ingenuity of community I will heed their advice and attempt to truly dig as deep as I can in my soul until I know that I seriously never want to spend another moment or day on relapse. As long as I question it, I’m not free. I MUST get truly free, and obtain that unshakeable knowledge in my bones. For example, I currently know I would never ever hit a woman or commit abuse, deep in my bones. Because it’s wrong and appalling. So I should react the same way to the idea of looking at porn or any artificial sexual content on a screen, because I am hurting myself and my relationship with women by doing that