Update and questions after 14days no fap

So I’ll be honest the first 11 days were actually not that tough like they usually are but I think it’s because I was busy at that time and had things to keep me going and keep my mind focused. However my biggest enemy is social media - I still am addicted to it I’ll spend hours on it and u can imagine the stuff on there, I’m always on social media and get turned on a lot but I never broke but slowly the urge builds in me, when I hit the 12 day mark that’s when the urge really hits and I start viewing stuff on social media like it was porn. Then the 13th day it leave me back to watching porn for hours but not the stuff I used to watch this is a whole new fetish which I’m ashamed of just pure disgust from it and I kept watching but I never broke my no fap stream. I’ve already made a couple of posts on the forum about the last 2 days and how it’s affected me - someone pointed out that what I’ve been doing is called edging and it can happen with social media or porn and it’s dangerous. What’s annoying is even though I felt good physically the first 10 days because of no fap I now feel the worst I’ve ever felt mentally, I deleted and restricted social media and my internet but my mind still thinks about porn and this new filth - what’s annoying is I have adhd and I have so much curiosity about things which is why I start thinking more deeply about stuff and get hyper focused at moments as well like yesterday when I spent hours watching porn and viewing this new fetish I have which the idea of disgusts me so much and I hate it now but all my mind wants to do is think about it. I’ll be honest I don’t have the willingness to want to fap anymore but i still just want to think about porn or just watch it and that just leads to edging. But as I write this I know that I want to get to a place where I never think about porn ever and thinking about that and writing this down has really helped me now in this moment. Another goal of mine is I want to get over this shame because it feels like I’m really experiencing shame for the first time ever or maybe because I’ve gotten used to past shame from fapping that I got used to it and stopped feeling guilt but because this is all new then this shame feels different too and I fucking hate this feeling. I know my adhd is gonna make me keep thinking about this but I’m gonna do what I can physically to repair my mind.