This needs to be done

Honestly Ive been fed up living like that for the past 5 years doing the same thing over and over expecting a change to happen out of the blue This is over I need to change my life and turn it the other way This dirty killing habit not only ruined my life but my self esteem and my mental wellbeing I lost myself before I wasn’t like that but ever since i got hooked on that dirty habit it just destroyed my life It has to come to an end and i think this is happening If i can make it to 14 days then there is hope I pray to god to get out of this hellhole