I’m struggling

i’m on my longest streak ever since i was first addicted the first 5 days were a walk in the park day 6-7 had a little temptation but was able to silence it with ease. day 8 was a little harder the thought of relapsing popped up in my head more than once. Now day 9 i’ve gone the whole day thinking about relapsing and even considering ending my streak i’ve done pushups until i can i took a walk listening to my music. i’m played some video games with my friends I can’t stop thinking about relapsing. i’m now laying in bed debating if i should or not and in all honesty it’s getting really hard to fight the urge