Recovery

12 days ago I failed and relapsed after relapsing once the disappointment hit me hard and instead of holding strong and restarting my streak I went on a binging spree relapsing several times in a few days - failing myself repeatedly and delving silly into my urges - I almost turned my back on my promises fully - this was a severe failure and I most own up to it and accept it. Luckily after doing this and reaching an ultimate low I started going to the gym making myself more busy I regained my streak back to 7 days. After learning from this I urge everyone on this journey - DO NOT MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE I MADE IF YOU RELAPSE- feeling low after relapsing is normal but do not go on a binge spree and give up because you came make that time up again - I reached 6 days and I barely noticed and I am so angry that I failed myself multiple times when all I needed to do was to make myself busy. I will own up to this now and after making it this far I refuse to fail myself again. I refuse to be a disappointment and allow myself be tormented by my senseless urges. As men we should be able to control our thoughts and movements and determine the direction of our lives. After 6 days I am so angry I allowed myself to fail but it will never happen again. If I get any urges I will immediately delete all apps and change my focus. I will immediately challenge my urge and realise that they do not control me but I control them. Nothing can shake me now. I make this pledge in front of all of you and I will be held accountable if i fail again. I will fulfill my potential on earth and will now allow anything to shake me from my path. I am proud I have others on this journey with me. Seeing your stories inspires me to be better. WE WILL ALL SUCCEED!!