Thoughts of relapsing
Day 5
by Nate
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I realize that I’m a little more fortified now and I’m fighting the thoughts more and doing what it takes to protect myself from giving in, but I’m getting a lot of urges and thoughts of relapsing today and I fear I’m going to get tired fighting it and just give in. I’m using what I know of how it feels after I give in to keep me from doing so and I’m keeping my phone out of the bathroom and my room so I don’t give in. I. Also reading more and spending time in the word so I fortify myself. It’s just really tiring and I’m scared I can’t do this.
This is a normal part of recovery my friend!! Stay strong, but I do want to say this in case of relapse—you’re not a horrible person if you sleep up. We spent YEARS developing this addiction. It would be impossible to get rid of it overnight. If you relapse, reflect on it. What was the major trigger that lead to it? What other coping skills could you have employed? Maybe consider finding an accountability buddy! Or, when you get the urge, call a family member or friend to ride past the urges. You got this!!