My struggle

So I know I have ADHD, I’ve always wondered why I’d always fall back into watching videos. I was craving the dopamine rush. I started at the age of 13 (I’m 33) this app has helped me so much, I’m now 12 days clean, I usually could do a week or some times 2 weeks clean and then fall back. Using this app holds me accountable, not saying the temptations aren’t there, I’ve had multiple times where I almost relapsed. Everytime I’d relapse in the past, I’d feel so dirty and guilty plus full of shame, but right before it i felt soo so good. The temptation to look at videos and relapse are so so strong for any man, and women too. But just think of the reward that comes with reframing from it.