Why don’t I feel the change?
I am 59 days in. Almost 60 days/ 2 months in and a lot of what I’ve researched talks about seeing big change in behaviors around this mile stone. To be honest I just really don’t feel the change. I’ve been clean for almost 2 months and by the strength of God alone I’ve been able to fight the temptations when they arise. But I still feel tired, I still feel anxious and my brain just keeps certain images or memories in loop that I can’t get out that make the battle harder. I’ve heard maybe it’s called brain fog. I just can’t clear all the bad out of my mind. I just thought by now I would have just felt different, at least proud of myself for 2 months(which before this turn to God to help me, I’d never made it more then 2 weeks, once). I just don’t feel much and I don’t know if that’s because of everyone’s walk being different or what.
i have friends who have never fapped and still experience those emotions but what does work is reading self help books, talking with therapists, and doing other things to work on yourself