I was so close yesterday

It was almost 12am and I was so close, I said a prayer and it kinda went away, I talked to the ai and hit the panic button and I managed to keep strong! But that was hard, I’m on day 8, and something feels different this time! I have more hope and I’m going to do it! I recommend saying a little prayer, it’s basically meditation but a little more holy feeling to it. If you’re not into that, that’s ok meditation might help to, I’d recommend a guided one, they help me!