I was just attacked

I know not all people believe possession, but I think I was just directly attacked. I was just laying down chatting with my girlfriend, just talking some things out, having a deep talk. When I started feeling dizzy, like a buzz that you feel from alcohol. Started having suicidal thoughts that I haven't had in a while and how "nice" it would be to let go, also how nice it would be to drink and smoke, keep in mind I haven't smoked in years, thank God. So I was like "ey this isn't me like what's happening." My gf just said, "You should pray." The first thing I thought was, " maaan, I don't want to prayyy" Then I was like, " The fiddle am I talking about l." I remembered a saying, "Not sure if it's from scripture but it goes something like this: "If you don't want to pray force, cause something is also forcing you not to." Goes hard, btw. Anyway I immediately jump up out of bed, as I'm about to go to my knees and start the prayer my whole body tenced up and my jaw locked up before I could even speak. I legit had to force words out of my mouth and as I was praying kept twitching. Ofcourse by the power of God it passed and I feel better. But I prayed for atleast 15 minutes( probably less) reciting scripture and praying for protection. Everyone pray for each other. Thank you for reading this, believe what you will but I know what happened and remember Jesus is king.