A lot of years
Hey guys. Was exposed to porn at a young age (8y.o. I’m now 27) and it has ruined my life. I knew it wasn’t right and I tried off and on to quit by myself with just my willpower but that’s not possible. Porn changes the way you treat people and see human beings. I ended up in a 5 year relationship that was going perfectly, we were about to get engaged we were going to buy a house and from my addiction and the fact that I didn’t view these random women as people with consequences I viewed them as objects to use, I cheated on the love of my life. It didn’t feel like cheating though because I “didn’t care about them” I could compartmentalize the difference between what I tried desperately to have as real love and just some object to get off to. My girl found out and it has absolutely torn my world and my heart out. Of course she wants to leave and I respect that, but I truly was 70% down the way to quitting porn, I just needed that little bit of help to hold myself accountable and to not feel alone. Moral of the story is porn will destroy your mind, your heart, your ability to show love, accept love, and make you long for this validation that will never come through it. I am proud to have a few day streak and I am proud to do it with y’all.
Sorry to hear. I appreciate you sharing, I am in a similar situation and it helps hearing it from someone else.