Feeling unclean
Day 4
by Ben
21 upvotes
Idk if anyone ever feels like this but there’s times when I feel really tempted and mentally decide to look at stuff but don’t. As the day goes by I have the same feeling as I would’ve if I watched something. Idk if that makes sense
Yes. It does make sense. I've felt it too. The familiar feeling of guilt that you usually feel after you'd done it - but the difference is that this time you didn't do it. It starts with the urge, the cycle still happened in your nervous system, but you didn't join in. What you're feeling is your body responding to your courageous choice you made to let the moment pass. It's dissonance, but real growth and change.