Impossible

I’m seeing a lot of similar stories. I been watching porn pretty much consistently since I was 11. And I know I’ve been awkward many a times because of it with women. I only acknowledged recently that I would essentially panic when women were around or talked to me. Porn isn’t the only reason for that, but it’s part of it. It’s been apart of my infrastructure on how I wake up, how I sleep. Rewarding myself with pleasure just for living. I just got past my first night with this app, but I’ve tried to quit porn SO many times, it just always felt impossible, like my body threatened to beat my ass if I didn’t watch what I watched. I don’t have a choice this time though. I have became a slave to my desires, and it must stop. Because now; I desire change.