Lost the battle
I was a little over a week without watching porn or masturbating. The last several days have been so tough. Temptation nonstop and social media not helping and today..it finally got me. I just couldn’t stop thinking about it and I was tempted to look stuff up and sure enough, relapsed and the entire time I was telling myself mentally to stop but kept on doing it. I hate this. I just reset my counter and I already am pissed off because I was feeling so good. I was enthusiastic and ready to tackle this. I just wish this was something that didn’t have such a freakin hold on me. I feel like a shitty husband and father. I don’t want to watch porn. I’ve got a beautiful and loving wife. I don’t know any my child growing up knowing I had this addiction and thinking less of me because I already think less of myself as it is. I try to quit for myself and for them and this evil just won’t let me go
God doesn’t want us to think less of ourselves just cause we sin. Yes we should be sorry and feel the guilt of having committed this sin. Then if we ask God, he can forgive for his mercy is everlasting. We of course have to keep trying not to commit the sin.