I know I feel better and way less stressed when I don't give in, but still when I see certsin triggers I wish for things I wouldnt wish for. I keep feeling like 'Why not, I can CD or wtv' but after I feel like shit again and stressed af abt the rest of my life. Sometimes idk what to do man. Sometimes I get scared of reaching a point where I dont know what to do again and I dont want to ever reach that again