First time hitting panic
I’ve been addicted for 11 years, watching porn 2-4 times a day every day. I’ve never had the discipline to stop myself if I’ve thought about porn, to the point I’ve been late to school and work. I’ve had the app for 2 days and just never cared to hit the panic button, but just now, as I went to Reddit to watch videos, the first thing I see on my homepage is a recommended post about porn addiction. It got me thinking and I went and pressed the panic button, and to see my own face, I looked so feral. It was the same feeling of self hatred that I get when I finish, but then the words of motivation afterwards made it hurt less, and without climax. I did the exercises, and for the first time in 11 years, I stopped myself. I feel so free. I’m now 4 hours clean and I hope to quit for good.
For me, remembering how I felt after relapses. That feeling of disgust and disappointment. Then downloading this app and using it as that extra push I needed helped me out tremendously. I just remind myself I never want to feel that feeling I have after relapses again. I’m 17 days in and I do not regret it at all.