Did this, did that, doing this….

Ive deleted tumblr and only fans and fansly. It’s kinda easy to quit those things for me because they’re not real attachments. The hard part is not trying to do other habits like being intimate with someone who doesn’t really value me. I am use to having women attracted to me and that came with them knowing about whats in my pants (because I exploited myself). So often times it’s hard not to hit them up, they even call me and I’m like doing my best not to fall into being like that. I used to be a flirt and open about my attraction to them but that was because I was either seeking validation, trynna lock in their attention or even just being open about wanting to fuck them. It’s ruined a lot of my relationships and it’s ruined on I thought I valued heavy but I let my lustful desires get the better of me. I say this to say, it’s been hard. I’m going strong, going to the gym, going to class and applying myself to new hobbies and my passion for skateboarding. I’m struggling with my own depression as well as maintaining a positive mindset attitude.