Wow

I have been chronically masterbating and watching porn my entire life and I started very young. I was like 8 when I first started masterbating. Had a bunch of sex of all kinds and had two kids. I’ve cheated and I’ve been cheated on. I’m bi which brought a whole other list of trauma to the picture. I’ve had absolutely beautiful women and fun adventures on both sides. There was a time where expressing myself sexually very often felt validated, but In the end it leaves you empty. It leaves you weak and defenseless. It’s easy to want to justify something that feels so good. But it robs you of that sparkle in your eye. It robs you of your competence and confidence. It slowly but surely turns you into a zombie. You’re fully addicted to it…an addict doesn’t get out of his addiction until he wants to. You have to be sick of the person you are. You have to be sick of the man you’re becoming…when you actually start understanding that you’re giving away your power…actually see it …it gets too real. Too vivid to ignore. You have sacrificed true peace for porn…that’s an addiction that ruins kings. So get angry…get truly mad.. not at yourself …but rage against the intrusive thoughts as if they’re coming to kill you. You like being a loser? NO…so rise up brothers and stop making excuses for your lower self.