3 times
So, I’m clean from 🌽! But man, yesterday I fapped 3 times. Once healthy in the morning, thinking of my sweetheart. The other was when I was in FB marketplace and saw this really hot 20 y/o that wanted to smash but I didnt. Was a while back and I just got all caught up thinking about the missed op and rubbed one out. The other was right before bed, thinking of my sweetheart again. Now… I’ve always kind of had a high libido (everyone says that I know but… my ex and I were like 10 years of multiple rounds times twice a day) and I think 🌽was an unhealthy substitute… and that habit formed kind of young. Teens. After her and I separated I was like “forget girls!” And went down this rabbit hole of unhealthy habits. Now I’m trying to break it. It’s been 6 years of being single and now I need to break this habit so I can give all my love to my sweetheart. I like… was too nonchalant when she put herself out there… when I should have been all over it. There’s more too it but… she’s been trying, and I’ve been trying. But… when given the opportunity I was like “I’m good” in my mind even though my heart wanted it. Does this all make sense what I’m saying? Sorry kind of a rant.
Hey, there was no judgement on my part man. Just sharing my perspective. If it triggered you, perhaps there’s something to look at within yourself and learn from.