Energy

I lose all my energy when I pleasure myself. I have no desire for anything except that one thing. I’ve denied it for a long time because one of the people closest to me who is also my roommate sees no problem with it and even justifies it. I’ve always been in groups and crowds where everyone just justifies the wrong you do; and because at the time; there are no consequences or negative reactions; no changes are made because “no harm no foul” I want to get out of this headspace and away from these type of people.