I went into this journey with the main goal of building attraction to my fiancée, and finally getting rid of the hold porn has over my life. I’m on day three and I just masturbated to a video of my fiancée and I feel way better than when I would go to porn over her. I don’t feel disgusted or disappointed with myself like I normally would after getting off to porn. But I can’t help but wonder if this is healthy for my journey and if it counts as a relapse.