I always feel so strong but no matter what weakness prevails.

I found a way I took my own advice. But today was tough. A party I was going to got pushed back two hours and it was raining. I couldn’t go anywhere to get my mind off of things and I relapse. I couldn’t help myself. God has told me it to resist temptation but to refocus but even then the temptation is so strong, I’ve been doing this since I was 14 years old. Ten years of my life. Every second of free time I have is dedicated to this. I get so locked into this trance of constant scrolling on Instagram and my brain break is porn. I only go on safari for that. My screen time on safari last month… was 3 hours of porn. I need accountability I need help. But I don’t know where to go. I listened to someone and they said if you have this problem seek help. Where do I go?