Day 5

So I’ll be honest I’ve gooned twice the old fashion way I’m not sure if you consider that to be a loss but it was actually a big eye opener. So here’s what I learned so far… last week i watched porn and had to reset my streak cause of it and when I finished it was actually immensely unsatisfying and I was actually disgusted with my self a bit. After that I watched porn again and same thing happened -I didn’t get that usual rush. And this was after like a week of not using porn. So I reset my streak this week and I learned fatigue is a trigger for me, then I masturbated twice since then. Once yesterday and the day before -the old fashion way, and funny enough I got that rush I was looking for plus it was so weird (in a good way) to go back to the “golden age” (I’m older so I didn’t always have porn) I asked chatGPT a bunch of times about using my imagination and it seems to be a healthier alternative but I spoke to some guys about testosterone levels and semen retention. I figured I’ll cross that bridge when I get there. Right now the goal is to just remove porn from my life completely. Here’s what I’m dealing with now, I’m at a weird place. I’m not getting aroused, maybe in the morning but that’s typical for me. The goal it’s to get back to the old me where a woman would be totally nude in front of me and I’ll get rock hard and maintain an erection. Any advice? Should I be doing semen retention? Is my testosterone just too low ? Is it an age thing? I’m 28 and I really don’t believe in taking ED pills especially at my age, I’ve cleaned up my diet so far, I’m starting at the gym soon with some buddies. But I want that old me back that animal I used to be. So far I’m assuming it’s just my schedule and stress with school, I’m seeing my girlfriend again next week and I’m afraid of not being able to perform.