How do y’all do it? 😞😞
I think about doing it and then I just go on this spiral of which porn I like. I can’t keep doing this. I jerk and then I have this regret and then I wonder am I going to do this again. Everyone sees me as this perfect Christian but only do they know how bad this is. I’ve been doing it for five years and if feels like I’m on some type of drug. I have cried while praying telling myself I won’t do it again but then two days later it happens. I downloaded and app and gave a guy a blow job the other day and all I have been thinking about is that. I can’t stop thinking about that moment. It felt so good but bad so much depression after. I haven’t talked to my family since because I’m in such guilt. I’m scared to tell anyone for the things I’m in. I will feel embarrassed and mocked and made fun of. I don’t know what to do. It’s like I tell myself I’m not going to do it and then go use the bathroom and somehow end up doing it again. Someone please help.
Thanks!!