This is it

I appreciate all the support here… It’s so hard to feel like I’m getting back into God’s graces. I was actually a missionary from 2019-2021 during Covid and did a lot of work, but lost my way going into college. Life has had its ups and downs, but I put the gun back in my car. I’ll be dropping it off with my brother tomorrow. All I want is to just get off all this bullshit and enjoy my life again.

The dumb cliche of “can only go up from rock bottom” while sounds goofy, is one of the truest things you can think about. One thing I always struggled with and I’m sure many others have too, is trying to go from zero to hero and getting upset and depressed when you don’t. Whatever good things you do now, are better than before and that is ALL you should focus on. One step at a time brother. And it’ll continue to build and build and soon you’ll be looking back and be thankful for being in the position you are now. I know you can do it dude, and i know that you know deep down you can do it yourself. You’ll be in my prayers man!!! You got this.

Don’t give into the demons that’s what they want ensnare with lust then cause despair and death. Call on Jesus Christ he can save you

Do not end yourself, ever. I know the temptation and shame can be strong. But that’s something you just can’t come back from. I know the feeling. Just work on cutting ties with this one demon and you will see your life start to shift in the right direction

it’s okay ethan i understand you and im sure many others do. i’m glad you got on this app because it helps motivate you. no one deserves to not be loved and im sorry for you. pray to God and ask him for strength to quit smoking and to quit drinking. focus on school because that’s what’s going to get you somewhere in life even if you think it won’t. all you really need to do is to pay attention in class and i know it will be hard at first but trust me it’s possible. it makes me happy you said that “this is it”. God has got you back but you will not be pleased if you yourself don’t try. don’t do this to yourself and be grateful for the life you have. God bless you man.

Don’t kill yourself dude. No matter how bad life gets or how much you hate yourself for the choices that you’ve made, understand that even if you have to sleep on the streets and nickel and dime your way back into an apartment. One thing you can always have is self respect, dignity, and self love. And the beauty of that is that you are in total control of determining that for yourself. The world cannot take that away from you in the slightest. And all it requires is 4 things, do something good for yourself, do something good for your community, do something good for your health, and take an actionable step toward your wealth.