Addiction since childhood

Hey guys. I’ve been addicted to porn since I was 8 years old. However I did have a 4 year break and got back on it heavily at 12/13. I’m 21 years old and the longest I’ve ever been without porn since then is 1 month which was a year ago. Being addicted for the last 9 years I can honestly say it’s affected everything about my journey in life. I haven’t had problems with getting a girlfriend and I’m not a virgin. However, I’ve never viewed any of my relationships as a real relationship. I felt like I was only with them for one thing and it was simply lust. I used to be a good writer and read books all the time from 9 years old to 11. I actually wrote poetry and had my writings compete nationally as a child, but when I got into middle school around 7th grade I got peer pressured back into watching porn some of my “friends” showed me some videos after school and got me hooked again. Since then I’ve lost all abilities to write. I have had no creativity for the last 9 years of my life, I also did pottery and I haven’t felt like doing it for years. Porn is terrible. I just want to feel as good as I did when I was a child where my mind was clear and I was just focused on writing poetry. My goal is after 3 months(they say that’s when the brain kinda loses that fog) is to try and write a poem about beating porn and helping others. However, I truly hope temptation doesn’t get the best of me. It’s truly like a drug. It is an addiction and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Anyway. Hope you guys beat the addiction too.