90 and onward

So I haven’t made it to day 90, and I’m not even close right now. But I think it’s important we all realize that 90 days (just like two weeks, a month, 45 days, two months) is just another stepping stone. The goal of this platform is not to reach 90 days and then have permission to relapse. We must be conscious that we’re trying to develop a new, more meaningful lifestyle. This is a “Nanny McPhee” app. It will only be here as long as we need it. For most of us, that will be a long time. I fear relapse. I’ve been here at 8 or 9 days before, and any random thing caused me to stumble again into the vicious circle. But I like to think of those past failures as useful. They taught me to fear failing again, and if I do fail again, it’s because I haven’t learned the lesson well enough. I keep going, looking for some greater purpose than whatever my base sexual desires tell me to do. I’m trying hard to listen to the angel on my shoulder. Onward, and excelsior, A brother