About to fail😕
It’s about to be 12 and that’s where I fail
Brother you allowed the seed to be sewn in your mind when you made a statement like in your post. Say something like "This may be difficult as this is the time my urges are strongest, what can I do to help prevent that?" Remind yourself of why you're doing this in the first place. There will be hard times and temptations but the key is to see them as opportunities to triumph and build that self confidence. Challenges and temptations don't have to be a bad thing, it's all on your framing and mindset. Get back on the horse and go again, I know you are capable. Try to learn during each period of abstinence, even if you relapse push to be 1% better on your next attempt. All you need is progress, there will be setbacks but progress is never linear it is a fact of life. Good luck brother
Just fight this day
Do something
Literally run away from home
It’s really not worth going through guilt
Hey man! We’re there with you! You got this!
this is a sign of growth, knowing yourself is progress, now get off the phone and go to bed. Do something different, pray if you believe in a higher power, meditate if you do not, but you know yourself, now act. Journal.