Day 1 - Cruise Challenge

Boys, it’s day one. The tipping point for me downloading this app happened the night before I signed up. I stayed awake in bed, waiting for my wife to fall asleep… just so I could watch porn. With her right next to me. That post-nut clarity hit hard. Shameful doesn’t even begin to describe it. But what made it worse — the next morning, I got up around 6:30 while she was still sleeping. I acted like I was just getting ready for the day, shut the bathroom door… and went right back to porn and got off again. I looked at myself in the mirror right after — and I’m telling you, it was the most post-nut clarity I’ve ever had in my life. Probably the most shame I’ve ever felt too. But I’m choosing to use that moment as a tipping point… not as fuel to chase more dopamine through cheap porn. Now, I’ve got a lot of stress going on in life — probably more than I’ve ever felt. And this has always been my go-to escape. But stress isn’t an excuse. I’m seeing firsthand how this habit pulls me further away from her. I feel the disconnect every time I go down that road too many days in a row. So that’s why I’m doing this. I’m calling it the Cruise Challenge — 30 days, no porn, no masturbation, dialed-in diet, all leading up to the cruise I’ve got in a month. I want to show up to that cruise feeling clear-headed, confident, and in control. I’ve done stuff like 75 Hard before, and when I tack on no PMO, it seems to stick better. So this time, I’m putting it out there publicly — I’ll be posting here every day with an update. Let’s see how far we can take it. Let’s go.