I guess I’m trying this out

I don’t really wanna give too much detail but I feel like I should introduce myself. I’m a 22 year old Christian man currently in my 4th year of college. I’m in a strong relationship with an amazing woman for almost 5 years and I have great friends and loving family. I’ve felt a deep guilt about my porn and masterbation habit for as long as I’ve known it was sinful and I’ve really wanted to quit porn for years. My girlfriend knows I do this and we’ve had to have these dreadful conversations about it every few months it feels like. I’m so done with porn controlling my life and I desperately want to stop so I guess that’s why I’m here. I first saw pornography before I was even 10 (I don’t remember the exact age). I remember becoming obsessed with it after I learned it could lead to pleasure. More than a decade had passed and I still engage in this awful habit. I saw a video on YouTube just a day ago about a guy who’s my age and has had a porn addiction for 10 years. I saw myself in that guy and it deeply convicted me. I had never once thought that I’ve been addicted to this stuff for a decade of my life. I was once a naive 10 year old boy watching YouTube kissing pranks. Now, I’m in a serious relationship with the woman I want to marry within a couple years, but I still can’t shake the habit (not that I’ve been trying that hard). But I want to change that today. I’m 0 days clean, but I’m here and ready to try.