As I’m on day 10, and have completed day 9. Boy today has to be one of the hardest yet. The urges won’t go away, as I right this I’m tempted but I’m about to get into a cold shower. I’ve been affirming to myself all morning that I CANT GO BACK! I WONT!! It’s been a wrestle all day in my Mind because I’ve been idle, but I’m about to get moving.
It happens, stay strong! For almost 2 weeks I have been doing very good, but yesterday I was just on a website and literally out of nowhere there was an advertisement for women’s underwear picturing a model. I was already struggling with temptation a bit that day and satan knew I was staying strong, so he called in another attack. It triggered me so much that I started looking for loopholes to bypass my content filters (thankfully my filters are very strong). I was trying to get my eyes on any little thing. But as soon as I snapped out of it and realized what I was trying to do, I felt immense guilt for even attempting. I know I didn’t relapse because my content blockers stopped me, but my intent was not good and I felt as much guilt as if I did relapse. I’m thankful that I was able to make it out. It is not worth it brother, stay strong!
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Thank you bro! I’m proud that you were able to push through man because these urges are something else fr! Let’s keep going and free ourselves from this!