I will win.

April 14, 2025 - relapsed today. Stupid enough to let my brain give me any excuse to get that quick dopamine. Wasn’t even close to worth it. Time to make this addiction my bitch. Time to make these urges my bitch. I control it. I have won. I pledge today that I will not let myself or you guys down and that I have officially beaten this addiction. I see it for what it is - disgusting. Parasitic. A killer. But I’m stronger. I’m the one who will pull myself out of this. No if ands or buts about it. I’m pissed. Fucking pissed. But now it’s time to bounce back and go harder than I’ve ever gone. Become a beast. Be the best. Fulfill my destiny. This no longer satisfies me. I hunger and search for more. The days away from this addiction were great. I felt confident and free. Now I kill it. I’m not weak. I have won. This is over. I am free. Finally free. -April 14, 2025