Feeling the urge but remember what my goals are

I feel great today. You know, just another day to be alive with my butt off. Make sure I do everything right for myself and understand that you are in recovery. You are trying to make sure that you retrain your mind not to see things in a sexualize image and you’re teaching yourself how to be a better person and also respect people, including women and appropriate way as possible not just look at them as tools or anything else as I start my day off by looking at my Instagram, I know that Instagram has this type of pattern where people look at women in bikini suits, and it gives you the urges to the large pornography little that I know I almost triggered a bit, but I kind of told myself no and then just play music listen to my favorite artist and you know it went away so is identifying the triggers that helps me understand like OK if you’re bored you’re alone and you know you just wanna like jerk off a bit I’d rather have sex with a girl instead of watching porn come to mind it’s gonna take some time so the more you retrain your brain the more easier for you to get rid of those certain habits that you used to have from a while back or during the pandemic so it’s all about like the process trust the process if you mess up keep trying if you are on a grind keep grinding harder until you are fullyclean Amen.