Long journey ahead

I’m on my second day of recovery & this morning was especially rough, I woke up with a severe case of morning wood and everything inside of me was telling me to let one out. I opened up the instagram app and saw all these beautiful women I follow post there pictures of the weekend and I was losing it. Full on lusting over these beautiful souls. I realized I was heading towards the wrong direction so I hopped out of Bed to be productive. But it has me thinking, all these years watching porn really ruined my perception of women. Instead of lusting, lurking, and rubbing one off, I should gain confidence message then and get to know them. I survived today & have a long journey ahead and I’m in need of a lot of mental rewiring.