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Numb

Day 0
by Nathaniel
141 upvotes

When I feel down, my mind turns to porn because it knows it will give me a lot of dopamine but rn I don’t feel better at all. So porn doesn’t actually make it better, only worse. Today I just felt a bit numb, I honestly don’t really like my job, I don’t feel free, it’s my first job after finishing university and I have honestly learnt so much and made great friends but I also feel a lot of pressure from my boss, and it’s not what I want to do. Idk how to explain it but I’m just numb and today I wanted to find a healthy way to entertain myself so I feel better. I watched a movie, I exercised, but at the end of the day I ended up masturbating and watching porn. Now I see it doesn’t make things better. I need to find a better way to cheer myself up when I’m feeling down. I am not going to stay in shame or guilt. I feel God working in me, even today I really didn’t want to watch porn, it’s feeling different, almost like I’m losing interest in it. However I feel like I may also be losing interest in other things and I think it’s honestly because of my job. Idk tbh, I’m thinking out loud. I know that God is in control. Pray for me brothers and sisters, that God will lift me out of the pit and set me on high ground.

Comments (3)
Cristiano 79d ago

Best advice is to read ‘the easy peasy way to quit porn’ by Allen Carr or listen to the audiobook on YouTube. Just like you mentioned how watching porn made you feel worse, the book makes you understand that porn pleasure is an illusion and that it causes pain. Reading it has helped me so much in recovering from this addiction and I hope it does the same for you too.

Joshua79d ago

🙏🏽 keep seeking our father who’s alive in heaven

Alex79d ago

Acknowledging you want to make the change is the most important step! Use that panic button - It’s a huge help!

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