Ready to transform

Hey guys , Day 2 and I’m fighting and it’s not easy. Prior to downloading this app , have been reading a few books like ‘Atomic Habits’ and Unfuck Yourself which are great books that I highly recommend if you are in this journey of freedom as well. Currently reading a book called ‘Stick with it’ which is also a great book to support your journey into becoming porn free and having a meaningful, productive, fulfilling, healthy life. Also listening to a podcast called Unhook. What I have come to realize in this journey of becoming porn free is that there are a lot of resources available and looking for helpful material is also helpful in fighting off the urge to look at porn. A little about me I’m a 44 year old man , married for 22 years, have three children, have a great professional career , and have been active in Christianity for over 10 years. I’ve been fighting porn addiction since I was 10 years old . Just about everyday of my life since I was 10 my life has been filled with lust and pornography. It’s a lonely and shameful addiction and I am so aware now of the consequences of this addiction. I grew up in a very abusive home and the feeling that porn and masturbation gave me during those dark times was so addictive. Anytime I am bored, alone, or even stressed out porn has always filled that space. It has costed me so much opportunities, I lose focus at my job , productivity is very low, my sex life with my wife has gotten worse. My brain is wired to get aroused to porn on my phone , and if I do get aroused with my wife I finish very quickly because porn wires our brain to finish quickly . Access to porn has changed so much throughout the years. It is so accessible today no wonder people are getting addicted to it. With all of that being said , I am ready to have a more meaningful fulfilling and productive life and be a better version of myself for God , my family and friends and my colleagues at work. I deserve it and so do they. Praying for successful journeys for all of us and learning to love and respect ourselves on this journey.