When I started

I was 8, and I at some point I figured out rubbing my groin in blankets felt good. So I literally had orgasms when I was 8 and I don’t remember how frequently I did that, I had no idea what it meant but it felt good. Three years later, I see a YouTube video with a title like “caught cheating”, get excited, close it, come back the next day and I search it up on safari and I find porn. That day, a part of me died. Maybe it’s still alive, just dormant. I’m 17 now, and I’ve been addicted since 11, but I had past experience from when I was 8. I literally made layered underwear (ten layered on one) so I could do that easier). I was an interesting kid but man it absolutely messed me up. Aiming to change.