My cold hard truth

So ive been addicted to porn from 2021,ik its been a long rode and the one thing I keep on thinking is where I would be with sexual discipline,at one time I went on for 3 solid months then I relapsed cos of twitter then the next time it was cos of reddit,now I just broke a 28day one and I feel the silence once more this time I realise that our wil can only take us too far.This time my plan is to cut out all apps that would lead to a relapse,screens off by 9pm I pray and read my bible then sleep at 10 pm latest and ensure I stop trying to carry this burden alone,it got to a place where even after relapse all I would feel is numb,no carrot no sunshine just emptiness but Ik when I relapse once it puts me in a cycle of you alr failed whats just one more session and I enter a loop of like a week or 2 of constant relapse now I don't want to feel sorry for myself, I know where I screwed up and I want to fix it,as much as these gurus say that you can fix yourself by running away the truth is lust will always be one wrong decision away,it never leaves it just waits then when youre weak it strikes but today I make this declaration my fellow brothers and sisters, the task set before us is not above our capabilities,we will slay this demon and live lust free,I believe this will be the last time I restart my timer because now I truly despise what this sin is doing to me .