Practice
Day 47
by Scott
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I’ve been practicing my response to urges when I’m not feeling urges. At first I thought this would cause problems, like practicing responding to an urge would make me feel the urge to view for real. But I think it’s actually helping. I imagine what that urge feels like, that tension in my head and chest that’s telling me to go look, but then I practice what it feels like to stick to my goal. It’s like a vaccine or something, if I keep practicing when I’m not feeling urges, the real thing feels more manageable. Seems to be working. I have to think that reconditioning my brain means more than just fighting back against the urge when it comes. Gotta keep oil in the lamp for when I need it and prepare ahead of time.
I agree with you, in some sense. When i remind myself that my brain is just rewiring itself, the struggle subsides. The war isn’t over, but the battle is won. Small victories add up.