Minute 20

For far too long have I felt an immense sensation of disgust toward myself, an unbearable feeling of shame I’ve struggled to shake off for many years… Though to tell you the truth I never really wanted to quit, let alone do anything to stop myself for good. So here I am, taking my best shot to leave porn behind for good, so whatever is left of my dignity can be restored… Not only for myself, but because there’s a special person I want to build my life with… and I don’t ever want this dark side of me to get in the way of my relationship with her. I want to quit, I want to see through to my potential, I want to persevere, I want to overcome, I want to become a better version of myself, I want to look in the mirror without disgust, I want to feel motivation, I want to feel pride… and I want to redeem myself. (As of now it’s been 25 minutes…) Please, wish me luck, as I would for anyone else on this path to redemption.